"The fact is that I've developed a system of mediocre habit as if I'd been working on it for like 200 years. And it's in that rut of never learning or changing, but always feeling like you're about to- that's where I live, and that's the rut where I've decisively decided I am now content to go on living...I'll become just as happy as I've always been tempted to be" ---Benjamin Kunkel, Indecision